Chapter 3 - The Cargo Hold of the Mind

The Boeing 737 taxied slowly toward the active runway, the dull roar of the twin jet engines vibrating through the floorboards and rattling the plastic tray tables.
Mason hadn't said a single word since we pushed back from the gate. He sat rigid against the window seat, his forehead pressed lightly against the cold double-paned glass, watching the runway lights streak past in a blur of amber and white. The gummy bears remained untouched in his lap, sealed inside their plastic packet like an offering to a holiday that had been abruptly canceled.
My heart hammered a frantic, erratic rhythm against my ribs.
I pulled out my phone, ignoring the airplane mode prompt, and tapped open our shared family photo album. There was Tyler, smiling brightly beside me on a beach in Michigan last summer, his arm draped casually around my waist. There was Tyler holding a two-year-old Mason, tossing him up into the air with a laugh that had once felt like the safest sound in the world.
How long had the double life been running?
Months? Years?
When a man can look his wife in the eye on a Friday morning, kiss her goodbye, promise he’ll be home by Saturday dinner, and then use a commercial aircraft PA system to broadcast a love confession to another woman named Chloe, he isn't just cheating. He’s a stranger wearing a dead man’s skin.
The engines whined, rising to a deafening, metallic crescendo that pushed us back deep into our seats. The plane surged forward, tearing down the tarmac with blistering speed, lifting off the ground with a sickening lurch as gravity grabbed us and pulled us toward the heavy gray evening clouds.
As soon as the seatbelt sign chimed off with a soft ding, passengers began shifting, reclining their seats, and pulling out laptops or magazines.
I leaned over to Mason.
“Hey,” I whispered gently, putting a hand on his shoulder.
He didn't turn his head immediately. When he finally looked at me, his eyes were dry, but they carried the heavy, weary look of a child who had grown up too fast in the span of thirty seconds.
“Is he going to live with her now?” Mason asked, his voice barely audible over the hum of the jet stream.
The question hit me like a physical blow, driving the air straight out of my lungs. I swallowed hard, blinking back the hot, traitorous tears stinging my eyelids. I refused to cry in front of him. I refused to let Tyler break us down completely.
“I don't know, buddy,” I said honestly, pulling him closer into my side. “Whatever happens, it’s going to be okay. I promise you. It’s just you and me, Mason. Always.”
“I hate his airplane,” Mason muttered, burying his face against my jacket.
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“Me too, sweetie,” I whispered, staring out the window into the endless, starless dark of the upper atmosphere. “Me too.”
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