Chapter 2 - The Mask of Devotion

"They were out of the hazelnut creamer you like, so I had to settle for plain," Mark said, walking over to the bedside table and setting the coffee down. He leaned down, placing a warm, tender kiss on my forehead. "How are you feeling, sweetheart? You look a little pale."
My skin crawled at the pressure of his lips against my skin. Every instinct in my body screamed to lunge at him, to scream, to tear away the polite fiction and demand to know what he had done with my child. But the memory of nurse Judy’s warning—*Don't react. Just smile.*—flashed through my mind like a lifeline.
I forced my facial muscles to relax, swallowing the bitter lump of iron and tears in my throat.
"I'm just tired, Mark," I whispered, keeping my voice deliberately thin and weak. "My body still hurts so much."
"Of course it does, baby. You went through hell," he murmured, pulling a chair close to the bed and sitting down. He reached out to take my hand, his fingers warm and dry. I had to fight every muscle in my arm to keep from yanking my hand away from his touch. "We both did. But we have our little fighter right here. Look at him. He’s got your nose."
I turned my head slowly toward the plastic bassinet beside the bed, where our surviving son was sleeping soundly, completely unaware of the monstrous web of lies spun around his birth.
"Where is he, Mark?" I asked softly, testing the razor’s edge.
Mark blinked, a microscopic flicker of tension crossing his features before he smoothed it back into concern. "Who, honey?"
"My other son," I said, meeting his eyes directly for the first time. "Sometimes... in the fog of the anesthesia, I keep feeling like there were two of them. Like I heard two cries."
For a fraction of a second, the blood drained from Mark’s face. He squeezed my hand a little too tightly.
"Postpartum hallucinations, sweetheart," he said, his voice dropping into a smooth, comforting cadence that made my stomach churn. "The doctors explained that to us. The trauma of the emergency delivery plays tricks on your memory. We only ever had one baby make it. You have to let that fear go. We need to focus on the family we have left."
Family.
The word tasted like ash. He was looking right at me, lying with the ease of a man who had practiced this performance a thousand times.
"You're right," I whispered, dropping my gaze so he wouldn't see the fire burning behind my eyes. "I'm just being silly. It’s the grief."
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Mark let out a long, relieved breath, patting my hand. "It’s okay. I’m here for you. We’re going to get through this together."
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